I’m Still Here

Dear lover ex-lover,
I was willing to take a city
But you had to go all big
And promise me the world
Look at me now
Struggling to separate myself
From all these promises you made
Every word you said that included forever.
I loved you so much
I was not ready to be alone
Look at me now
Struggling to un-love you
Spending every time of my day
Trying to un-feel what my heart felt for so long
The hugs and kisses
And all the excitement I felt when I was with you.
All your feelings are gone
You are gone
But I’m still here
Trying to un-love you
Lower my expectations
And reduce my attention
What do I do with all these beautiful memories?
All these things that remind me how much I miss you?
I hate how I feel
Thinking about how unreal all these moments were
Wondering why you had to forget me so fast
I know I will never have my answer
Yet I yearn so much to know
All I know right now is that you are no longer mine
But I’m still here
Loving you silently