I’ve long believed that my name would sit comfortablyin sentences that began with 'my wife'. I taught myself patience.Practiced how to be soft,even though I’ve never been good at it. My flaws,I learnt to edit them slowly.To work on them,like somehow I thought these were the missing pieces. I showed up, whole.In my nakedness. Then… Continue reading Let Me Be the Girl You Bed Tonight
Tag: sad love
Broken
He came to me broken, shattered and torn,A man so lost, so hurt and forlorn.I gave him my heart, my love and my trust,Helped him through his worst, his pain and his lust. I held his hand through the darkest of days,I wiped his tears, chased his fears away.He leaned on me, and I held… Continue reading Broken
Forbidden
Let me start by apologizing for keeping you up most nights.I wish there was a way I could have less dreams of you.When the world talks about ‘forbidden’, they mean it;I want to tell them about you but it’s forbidden.What do people do with these unreciprocated feelings?Who do I turn to when the world is… Continue reading Forbidden
Betrayal
His words calmed her nerves,But, he can’t compare it with her patience.He can’t feel what she felt when she was watching on the sideline,When she was the cheerleader and not on the field.She loved him the first day she saw him.Its funny because she had just brought life into the world,And her heart had been… Continue reading Betrayal
Let Me Know
Let me know Where to put this heart I don’t want it For I gave it to you Now you say It’s time to give it back I don’t have anything For I have to sew it Ripped by the hands put together This is my pain, I know I let you go, you didn’t
Typing
Typing… Two minutes later, Typing… Five minutes later, Typing… “Hi,” She’s hurting She wants to tell him She’s feeling empty She wants to tell him She’s lonely She wants to tell him Then she remembers He doesn’t care It’s not a priority He doesn’t like communication You’re weak when you cry You’re nagging when you… Continue reading Typing
Ego
Here we are,Two hearts,Yearning for each other,Craving for each other’s warmth,Dying to love each other,But, neither is willing to say it,Ego is one hell of a drug.
Stay
Stay. No, leave.Please don’t.Stay.No, I’m okay. Go. I changed my mind.Don’t leave me.I love you.I’ve always loved you.I can’t stop loving you. I’m fighting with my egoIt’s a battle I’m worried I’ll lose. Please stay. I want you here.I’m complete with youPlease stay. I’m sorry.I’ve pushed you away so many times. No, go.Mmmh,Whatever, It’s your… Continue reading Stay
Wait
Wait. Please wait.I have something else to offer.I’m not just stubborn and emotional.There’s more to me than what I said.No, what I showed you.I have something else to offerSo please don’t walk away yet. Wait. Please wait.I can be sweet. It depends with how you treat me.I am patient when you’re ready to give me… Continue reading Wait
Dear God,
Saturday, I had a funny conversation with God in front of my man. It was on a light note. Right now, I feel like God took my light sentiments seriously. I was making funny complaints asking God why He had to give me a man like him. It was all for fun. You know, the… Continue reading Dear God,
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