One day, when I'm done cleaning up all this mess, I'll sit down and applaud the girl who never gave up. I'll share the stories she wrote, the ones she wrote off, and the ones she truly lived. I'll let my soul be free and welcome you all into the world she fought so hard… Continue reading When all this is Over
Letters to my Son
To My Firstborn Son, My Baby BoyI'm sorry I brought you into this world before I had everything figured out.You arrived at a time when I was still trying to find myself—to make sense of this harsh world,to understand love from a young girl’s perspective.It wasn’t easy, and I’m sorry you got caught up in… Continue reading Letters to my Son
To The Ones I May Have Wronged,
I ’m sorry. I'm Truly and deeply sorry. There may have been times you felt I didn’t mean well, but I did. Everything I did came from a place of good intentions, even if it didn’t come across that way.The truth is, deep down, I was struggling. I felt us drifting, and I had to… Continue reading To The Ones I May Have Wronged,
To the friends I’ve lost and those we drifted apart,
Let me start by apologizing. We don't speak as often as we used to, and for that, I'm truly sorry. Life pulled us in different directions until one day, we forgot each other's voices and laughter.To the ones I lost touch with, know it wasn't intentional. Time slipped by, and we all got caught up… Continue reading To the friends I’ve lost and those we drifted apart,
Mercy
The cockroach walks, unbothered,I scream, the desire to crush it rising.But instead, I choose a gentler way—I find a rag, cover it,And drag it slowly outside,Letting it walk away, unharmed.If ever you feel I don't belong,An outsider in your circle,Trying to live unbothered,Without stepping on your toes—I hope you greet me with that same mercy,And… Continue reading Mercy
In My Next Life
In the next life, Should my last breath take me there, I will live differently from the mess I've made here. In that life, if fate allows, I’ll have more faith in myself, Remind myself that life is worth so much more. I will walk slowly, calculating each step, Sip my years like fine wine, … Continue reading In My Next Life
I Still Forget We’re Lovers No More
I still wake upLooking at your side of the bed.I still wake up With so much to tell you. One day I won't.One day, I'll rise without searching for you.I will teach my heart Complete acceptance.And stop burrowing in your old jammies,Pretending you're still here. I will stop panicking whenI can't remember your voice.Or the… Continue reading I Still Forget We’re Lovers No More
I Want to Know
It means little to me to know where you come from, who you know, or how much money you have. Would you still get up after a night of tears, or a day that passed when you are weary and adrift? It means little to me to know your age, where you work, or how… Continue reading I Want to Know
The Battle Within
I need to share some feelings that have been weighing on my heart. Being in a relationship with you is something I truly cherish, because I love you with every part that makes me whole. But sometimes, it brings challenges that I find difficult to navigate. I strive everyday to understand your personality, that part… Continue reading The Battle Within
Forever in My Heart – Father’s Day
How can I end Father's Day without appreciating your presence in my heart? Though you're not here, and 25 years is a long time without you, you have always been with me in spirit. You remain in all our hearts, and we love you dearly. I love you and deeply appreciate the years I had… Continue reading Forever in My Heart – Father’s Day
Nancy Atieno's Notes 