I wish I could get you off my head and my heart. I want to move on but it’s not easy to do it without you. I’m sounding like a broken record, but, my heart is broken without you. It’s hard for me to move on. I still feel something strong for you – it’s making it hard for me to want to be with someone else. If only my words meant something to you.
If only my letters would ever find their way to you, you’d understand what I mean. Perhaps you feel that my silence is worth it and that I don’t care. I do. Deeply and sincerely, I do.
I said your name last night. It scares me because it didn’t come out as I would say another’s. It was slow, with breaths breaking the letters. It was like you were there, holding me; making love to me. I miss these moments. I do. How am I comfortable not being with you? How are you comfortable not being with me?
Yours
N.
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